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hamletshoeratio · 10 months ago

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Can y'all just be you know normal Marina Thompson for like 5 seconds? Because christ, the sheer Misogynoir that some of you spread about her character is insane and you don't even realise it.

#marina thompson #bridgerton netflix #bridgerton spoilers #bridgerton #amanda & oliver are her babies #she's not a surrogate she's their mother #can y'all not root so loudly for her to literally kill herself so discount mr rochester can get with eloise #& so that Eloise will lose her personality and end up in a relationship that is her literal nightmare scenario #i see people wanting eloise to end the season writing to discount mr rochester because the pen lw reveal will probably impact marina #and quote unquote be what pushes her to the edge #and that is beyond vile #of course marina will have a reaction she has every right to but to actively want her to harm herself #so that discount mr rochester can be reinserted into the plot? fuck no that's absolutely vile #if you are going to write about a character struggling with mental health issues do so respectfully or don't do it all #because you'll do far more harm otherwise #if Eloise does write to anyone i hope its to Marina #i don't think we'll see marina again but i want her alive and happy off screen #my heart is still rooting for theo & Eloise but I'm enjoying Cressida & Eloise atm #but so long as her endgame is a happy one that she deserves and not discount mr rochester I'll be happy #ruby barker #<- she deserves the absolute world

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neztune · 3 months ago

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It’s already been about four days since I’ve posted…

So I went to the unfinished stuff and tried to fight with it again 😭 So here’s a lil Toothless (I’ll figure out how to shade him eventually (I have to actually look at references for once))

#not only was the shading a struggle #but I also was struggling with getting his face right #over and over #this is kinda just me posting and running away #otherwise I’m nervous it’ll look crazier #toothless #httyd #how to train your dragon

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hunsa-jars · 6 months ago

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Dread be dreading

#ughg #i usually have awful thoughts randomly popping up here or there #make me pretty anxious for a few days then i won't think about them for a while #but man i can't handle doubts suddenly resurfacing #like this monday i was listening to my last lecture and everything bad i cooked up a in the past few months hit me like a truck #couldn't even focus i was too busy internally chanting shit fuck i don't want this i made a huge mistake shit shit #i won't be able to handle all this responsibility i'm so tired this will butcher my mental health should have chosen media studies fuuuck #what was i thinking what am i gonna do help #then proceeded to distract myself with an electric outlet otherwise i might have started crying #:/#and those thoughts aren't wrong unfortunately #i love this university and the classes and the things i study #the teachers and my classmates and the kids i got to take care of #but i don't think i could do this for real #i'm not even struggling with anything i'm just scared and tired as hell #and thought i could just. power through it- like if i'm stubborn enough it won't matter that it's draining #but damn #and hell originally i came here because i wanted to teach english to kids #i guess my expectations were too high i don't feel like i've learned anything that useful this far #and turns out it won't get better #we just gonna do presentations again #to be fair i loved researching nursery rhymes but i hoped we would have... more. of that #also about media studies. chief... i crave to be there #could have picked the english specialization there too- i'm a moron. a bozo. holy shit #well. gonna go through this semester either way. because again everything i study here (almost everything) is genuinely great and useful #and perhaps i'm just in a Pit right now #the dread pit #should probably break this to my sister. somehow #random squeak

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oopsallmabari · 9 months ago

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sorry i'm gonna whine on combat some more (acknowledgment that this is a me thing) also assuming based on this that we won't be able to control companion actions during fights? like. for the new type of combat does it make sense to only/mostly rely on NPC AI for fighting and hopefully that does help me if i SUCK ASS at combat but. :( i liked the prev games' combat mostly because i could usually auto-hit in some fashion it was just a matter of me being strategic about technique and insta-pausing to reassess/move out the way

there is at least some combat pausing for rook and i'll def reserve final judgment till i play i just. what if we made video games for people like me who like story but are bad at gaming :((((

#dragon age veilguard spoilers #ari watches dav reveal #it's def more me-esque and like. i think ME is interesting and i still want to finish andromeda but WEEPING its so not my combat style.#i finished all of me1 and kinda gave up on me2. sci-fi has to hit me Just Right story-wise or i won't engage w it otherwise #and struggling w combat was not fun for me.#but again! this is a me thing. i am an outlier who couldn't get past tutorial for ps4 spiderman when i tried playing it lmao

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sharenalovemail · 11 months ago

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i still think feh's biggest crime is not having any of the books actively use askrian royalty's power of opening gates

we've got a few instances of embla's power of closing, back in book 1 even with veronica closing a gate before kiran gets through (though i guess it reopens later so that could be the one instance of askr's opening?) and then now in the newest chapter. and yeah we saw how askr and embla themselves (and ash and elm too) use their powers which are more powerful versions of the royals' but. idk i just want to see alfonse and sharena actually open a gate on screen and having it be significant in some way yknow?

#maybe that's where the new plot with yggdrasils roots will lead. but we dont know yet #i think the only instance of either askr sib using these powers on screen is. technically. the dragalia crossover event #where sharena struggles to open a gate just enough to get to alberia. and then at the end when they open another to leave #and that's the second part. alfonse opens a gate to leave in the first part of the crossover too.#theyve used it more in a game that isnt even their own...#you could argue we see lif andd thrasir using their powers constantly through b3 and in the b4 ending movie #opening and closing portals right after crossing. and the portal lif used to go back to the destroyed zenith in b3 #but otherwise it's???????#idk i wish it was a bigger plot point sometime lol #tortilla rambles #sorry im chatty tonight

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awfullybigwardrobe44 · 3 months ago

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Extreme To-Do Listing: having an entire section of your list that is stuff you won’t even think about until after Christmas/January because you know you won’t have time until then

#Struggle bussing right now #Sleep who?#leisure time who?#Even fun stuff is on the to do list because I have to make sure I have time for everything #I literally wrote Christmas movies into the family calendar this year because otherwise we won’t get to it #Fun Christmas tasks have to be worked into my schedule #And I have to put them on The List #So my list for tomorrow contains both “put up room decorations” and “battle the hospital/insurance companies”#Send help

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quietlyblooms · 3 months ago

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ummm someone help me think of a legitimate villain/criminal/etc au or an au in which chiyo’s changed and hardened bc i’ve listened to that loop of “when does a man become a monster?” from epic one too many times and i need to write some tragedy i fear

#no ‘ well she’s got one foot in each side or she’s being twisted against her nature by other forces but she’s still the same woman ’#only ‘ she’s been doomed by the narrative. she’s been changed by the narrative. this couldn’t have gone any other way ’#‘ she’ll never be the same no matter how much she wants to be ’#bc when does a comet become a meteor y’all!! when does a candle become a blaze!! when does the reason become the blame!!!!!#going insane sorry 😔 it’ll keep happening 😔#and the thing is chiyo’s moral compass is so strong — the only thing thus far that was ever made it move is her loved ones #love be it romantic platonic or familial can make her accept a lot #but to see her truly do anything ‘ bad ’ it’s like… i gotta place her in a situation and i need it to be big bc otherwise #she’ll talk herself into doing the right thing — and i’m okay with that! but!!!! i need her to struggle so much first #anyway… i’m home ASDGHJ #might get my face washed and whatnot first but i’m coming online to write hehe #hope today has been kind to you 💜#get ready to ramble | ooc #but who would wade through the overgrown flowerbeds? brave brambles and traitorous thorns? | wishlist

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gregmarriage · 1 year ago

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okay, i’m genuinely curious: do people find me intimidating?

#that’s crazy to me but i wanna hear it from you #bc i get intimidated by other people i deem too cool for me whether that’s silly or not #but like to think other people find *me* intimidating?#idk i feel im very jaded and my own perception of myself very obviously will probably not match other people’s #idk i’m thinking about that kinda stuff lately #both in the context of friendship and otherwise #and just trying to both be more grown up and putting myself out there and making new adult relationships #and also balancing that with autism and the struggle to do so #my experience with friendship is weird and i wanna actually learn to be better basically #idk i always feel i’m a bad friend but like i do try really really hard and if i was really a bad friend i wouldn’t try at all would i?#idk it’s very complicated and it comes from a werid childhood and yadda yadda #whatever my big thing right now is communication i guess?#and relearning how to do it etc #as i’ve said in multiple posts #and i guess i’m trying to bare with myself as well as asking other people to do the same #bc i wanna talk and make friends but i’m currently on a slow road to figuring stuff out in my life so uhh yeah #that’s the guist of it i guess #anyways imaooo this post got away from me #gwen rambles #gwenposting

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midnightwind · 1 year ago

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started a short fic with an enby Tav about how people call Astarion spawn and leech instead of by name a lot because I got Feelings over it (read the full fic on tumblr or AO3!)

#me holding up a nonbinary Tav: they're so demi and it's causing problems with the local vampire #got a brain worm over how like everyone in the game basically spits out the word spawn at Astarion and it Went #we're at a pretty 3k words right now and I still got some steam #it'd take place in Act 1 after gathering up all the potential party and mucking about the area #so they've spent a few weeks together #also hey I love Shadowheart she was just the most willing to clap back at Astarion in the over world for me #I struggle with Lae'zel writing but eventually! I hope to get better #because otherwise she'd be the one eviscerating him #tentatively calling this blurb the Power of Names

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girlwiththegreenhat · 2 years ago

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wanting to bitch about confusing road laws vs none of your friends drive or will understand = bitching on tumblr.

green lights at four-way intersections should always be accompanied by a yellow left turn arrow as a reminder to yield to oncoming traffic. this is the biggest problem facing our country right now. i am objectively correct.

#liz blogs #the literal only two things i struggle with are at FUCKING intersections #brain problem of 'i know information in theory just not in practice'#this is why we need public transit i am going to get killed and its going to be at an intersection <3 #'oh i am making a left turn and the light is green! better go left!' you foole. you fucking idiot. you utter imbecile.#THERE IS STILL ONCOMING TRAFFIC #BECAUSE FUCK YOU IF YOU TURN LEFT IG #GREEN MEANS GO............... GREEN MEANS GO DO NOT ADD EXTRA ~ * ~ SECRET STEPS ~ * ~#'you can make a right turn on red unless otherwise marked' idk maybe a green right arrow sHOULD COME UP THEN #DON'T MAKE ME ASSUME THINGS WHEN I DRIVE JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO #FUCK THIS GAY ASS COUNTRY* (* im gay)#if i saw a yellow arrow for the left lane i would remember to CHECK FOR TRAFFIC #i like driving until Intersections then i want everyone to explode except me so i can drive how driving should work #and thats enough to make me Not want to drive Period #I AM GOING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE SO FUCKING WALKABLE JUST YOU WATCH ME #I AM GOING TO PETITION THE GOVERNMENT (i am not going to petition the government)#im so mad im so good at driving until Bullshit ass Nondescript Intersection Lights #(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ KILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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swordmaid · 1 year ago

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ive been trying to figure out why my lines were looking so pixelated on sai like ive been fiddling around with my settings for a good hour but it turns out its my monitor smh -_-

#switched it over to my other monitor and its looking fine LOL #still trying to get used to drawing on my pc bc i think my laptop is .. well.. it's still in struggle town #but im trying to get used to my pc so i can work on my wips again otherwise if i work on them right away #theyll just look off 😭

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hellfireeddiemunson · 1 year ago

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i have bad melted soup brain today and i hate it